i dont want to limit your space babe. so i would be utilizing my blog post for now. i know that its hard on your side to give me space, but i dont want to limit your social activity for me. i know how it feels, trust me.
and i want to point some thoughts of mine in one way or another that affects both of us.
1. its good to have somebody on your back even if you don't need them. but i think its much better to acknowledge those who choosed to be with you when the world has made you a laughing stock.
2. i dont believe that we could be the usual "bestfriends" IF IT ended. based on my feelings at the moment, i still love you more than that.
3. the more i miss the person, the more i feel emotional for them and the more i tend to push them away. i'm not used in missing a person. guess my body makes me crazy when i feel such. i might say a lot of harsh words but all i need is a hug.
4. i've already sorted some things out and really wanted to text you the next night but i had 2nd thoughts. i dont know what. so i'll just stick to my "saturday plan"
5. that night, i had a nightmare. the one where i wanted to run away and wake up immediately but i can't. i never had such nightmare before. and when i did wake up, i'm gasping for air.
6. i was bursting with emotions that i was able to write few stanzas for you immediately after i hang up.
7. next day, i sang yeng constantino's cool oof song the whole day. i wonder how was that song fit perfectly to me.
8. you might feel that i don't miss you or i might wearing off.. but actually its the opposite. but unlike you, i dont have the guts to spill it out.
9. your "mahal", although a little bit unstable and stupid, is your same "mahal".
10. i miss you. and i'm hoping to talk to you soon.Labels: heart, letting go, relationship