that's a smart move of you. sa umpisa pa lang, naisip mo na to.. naiinis lang ako dahil di ko man lang naisip gawin yung ginawa mo. dummy identity. nakakahanga. isang tulad mo pa ang nakakalusot sa mga kalokohang ginagawa ko rin. at naniwala naman ang lahat sa katauhang binigyan mo ng buhay dahil na rin sa mga larawang ibinabahagi mo. sabagay, sayo din naman ang mga larawang yun.
i should've did the same thing long time ago. to find an exhaust for repressed emotions and anger and guilt. and you've utilized the web. where fakes and reality is easily separated by a thin line. you've made your identity so clear and so real that you could easily remove any trace of deceit once reality started to catch up on you.
very well. despite your arrogance and cleverness.. i hate you. you've reminded me why i hate myself. why most of the circumstances that i wanted to happen for myself happens to you. why you attract butterflies when i attract bees. why you swim at the ocean while i swim at a pond. and it seems like you're the symbol of unfairness in my life.
but i'm still thankful. that you've made me realize a lot. that i should never ever settle for something less than i deserve. that i must continuously seek for the betterment of myself before others. and you being the epitome of vanity.. i should imprint to myself the vanity and the narcissism that i badly needed. that i must love and never stop loving me. and everything else will follow.
so i don't like you but I'm thankful to you cause' i hate you. make sense? bottomline.. you have my respect. so for now.. i'll no longer care what's going on between you and with someone i know (eventhough gustong gusto kong dagukan yung kakilala ko..) haha. so.. let's carry on. continue living and mastering that skills of deceit. and i hope someday.. we'll cross paths. and by that time.. i'll make sure.. sisiw na lang na sabayan ka.
-fragment king
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