I dreamed of this.. where staying became my option, where bearing the weight is tolerable, where I found myself going home from work at dusk with dark clouds accumulating in the sky..
I dreamed of this.. where the people I know have left me, and I settled to walk alone. Where I have found my courage to move on, without expecting anybody from then on.
I dreamed of this.. where I saw a huge crowd of strangers, rambling on my way.. I reached out my hand forward.. and you grabbed my hand astray, clasping it hard and didn't let it go.
I dreamed of this.. where I easily ignored your acts of affection.. for I know that you have someone else to be with. So I chose to let you be.
I dreamed of this.. where I felt too jealous even though I didn't had the right. I felt your hands massaging my shoulders, I felt your hands rubbing my back.
Then I woke up.. with nothing left in me. I linger on the feelings.. the feelings I wish to see.Labels: dreams, poetry, relationship, self