For consecutive three years, my birthdays have been associated with unfortunate natural calamities and events that I already tend to expect something different this year.
I started my birthday eve with some friends who's been around life (if you know what I mean). They told me that I should take time growing up. Slow down and enjoy my youth. Take risks. Because that's what it means to live. And the mistakes that I'll commit would be the foundation of my decisions when I get older and more responsible. They really have been around for quite some time eh. And I took down notes. Thank you.
I went straight to the first mass of the day and offered white candles.I have so much to thank for the past year. I really am blessed. Then I spent my day replying to greetings from facebook and twitter and even on texts. I am very thankful for some who still exerted an effort to greet me today. You guys made me feel special. I should give some credit to facebook too. My beloved friends and acquaintances most probably will miss this day without it so thank you Mark Zuckerberg.
I ended my night watching The Perks of Being A Wallflower. A story which I could really really relate to. This movie tapped something from my sleeping consciousness of some things I've repressed. Quoting the a line from the book/movie "But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there."; it's hard to accept some things from the past, but as what the movie suggest, acceptance leads to moving on. And Charlie blew some birthday candles. That's enough for me. :p Watching this movie is the perfect way to end my day.
I've been looking for something different. And I didn't notice it at first. For the difference I've been waiting for has been standing in front of me. I am different. The changes and the lessons, the experiences and the feelings I had was never the same compared to the guy I was a year ago.
"We accept the love we think we deserve.” Till next year.
Labels: life, realization, self