I'm pretty sure we won't cross path considering the vast difference in the line of our career. But in case we do, I am not worried. Deep inside, I am relieved that I was able to save myself from the possible emotions that, I know, would eat me from within.
Don't get me wrong, I am thankful but sad. For the time I've given, the feelings invested, for liking someone who chooses to leave in the end. I usually do not let anyone be involved in my life unless someone has proven their worth. Now it feels shit-ier than ever being the one who's left behind. That's new. A taste of my own medicine.
So, no regrets. You're you. You have reasons you don't think I needed (deserve) to know. I just accepted that such acts and decision making is a part of you that I used to like.
And I am me. And I think it would be better to let go of such delusion of having someone like you, knowing that I'm far better than that. Might as well enjoy my youth than spend it thinking of whys and what-went-wrong thoughts of us. Oh. Yeah. Right. There was no "us". I find it weird and funny writing this down for someone who never even owned me.
Nevertheless, the future is vast. And in case I've eaten my own words, In case we do cross path, let's see who'll regret starting and ending that bittersweet first kiss.
Labels: heart, letting go, life, realization, relationship