Despite the bright sunshine and the clear blue sky, let me ask you.. Are you still willing to love though you know that you're about to die? Like in cases of SLE or malignancy where symptoms are abrupt and evil traitors, are you still willing to be loved by someone you're about to leave in the end?
Maybe because of that fear of dying gives you that sense of security from someone who gives false reassurances that every-thing's gonna be fine. And worse, sometimes it could give you the false sense of being in love. Such questions could be answered based on your perspective with love, selflessness and sacrifice. Would you consider letting someone love you though you know he/she would get hurt in the end? Are you willing to sacrifice your own happiness of being with someone you love knowing he/she could settle for better? Is Love enough for you to accept those remaining days?
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My answer: I will love. Just like before. Without expecting something in return. I will love those remaining days, doing my best to make people happy and good about themselves. Treasure each breathing moments in each passing day. Laugh my heart out and smile through the tears. Have the patience and warmth for people who lacks such. Tell them how they mean to me and how my life wouldn't be the same.
..because at the end of the day, you don't need such terminal disease to do such things. But such way of thinking, knowing that you're about to die soon, for sure would help you make a difference on how you'll live each day. We're all traveling towards death. Those who suffers such illnesses are luckier than those who are not for they've realized and knew "when" and "what to do".
It's never about the end but the travel itself that makes the difference between a LIFE lived and a Life LIVED.
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