It was all in a blur when memories started seeping in. It was during these moments where the moon is full bloom and the silence of the night persist that I started thinking of the things that occured.
When you seemed so close that you reciprocate the attention I have given yet too far to catch me if I fall. You seemed to maintain that distance of "friendliness" yet you're implying for more.
When you seemed to be nowhere when we are together. And you smile when I snap you back. Your thoughts are floating in the air, and words are the things you seemed to lack.
When you block my acts of affection, pretending you didn't notice. Like I was just some guy that you're kind enough to care.
When you have given me a chance to prove my worth, yet it seemed I failed for the first try. You immediately disregarded me out. Left me hanging without an explanation. Left me without a good-bye.
Little did I know that it was all because of someone. Someone who's already filling the role I was applying for. That you considered me as a double-actor and not the main star of your show. That it was a shame I came late for the audition, but you know you'll regret if you just let me go. So you rather have me stay and play a part as you slowly break my heart.
But the world will turn around, you'll see. You'll feel the loss, the deceit, the rejection. The feelings you've inflicted to me. You'll realize that I am worth more than what I used to be. And I wont be here to cater your late night confessions of affection.
For I am up there shining, one with the brightest stars.
Labels: heart, relationship, self