It was your decision to call it quits during the second week of the advent. You reasoned out that the infidelity you've made was just because of a previous act, which may I remind you, a baseless allegations coming from your part.
It was a conscious act of flirting, hooking up and seduction in which you fueled by rage and false assumptions. You did it without hesitation and reluctance despite knowing such would mean a slap on my face. You did it because you thought that such would be the best reciprocate of the disloyalty you believed I did.
And here you are in front of me standing proud with your claims and your crooked reasoning that never even gave justice to what you've done. And you have caught the perfect moment to strike me back while I was unstable and been hitting rock bottom for few weeks now.
To tell you honestly, it wasn't your unfaithfulness that caused me pain. It wasn't your allegations that made my heart skipped a beat. It wasn't your doubtless declaration of a sinister act that made me step back. It was your outward motive of revenge that made me broken to pieces just because of your inability to trust. A revenge directed towards a heart I thought you've loved and cared so much. A heart which never ceased to love you.
"If you want to break up now, might as well do it while I'm depressed. Pagod na ako.."
Labels: heart, letting go, relationship, self